Start all over.

How can I ever think that it would be possible? Really, how can I be so stupid? How can I ever think I would be happy if I am the person with worst luck in the entire world? Please!! Someone have to shake me out so that I can see the reality! I can't believe that I actually thought that and I really imagined a future like that. Life's still showing me I don't deserve to be happy. And I dont know why.
Sometimes I believe in coincidents and I really felt this was my chance. But this will never be my chance, because it's just impossible in any way you look it. And I feel awful. I dont know if this wasnt the time or if I am not destined to be happy. The only thing I know is that I'm here while the rest of the world is having a great time with persons they care about.
I just want to go away and start over. I never felt this way before, I just want to get away from everything that make me feel bad. And I will do it.