Pre-Christmas.

So, obviously, my happiness can't last forever. It may sound like a stupid thing but it is really annoying seeing how your family is fighting for this. It's christmas time and we should be all together, happy, celebrating, but my family is weird and they like fighting in the moments that we shouldn't. And I miss the old days, I miss my big big family. I miss beliving in Santa and being excited about the presents. But now, the only thing I look forward to is going out with my friends. And I hate that.I think that growing up is the worst thing ever, because you only realise how many problems are in life and how wrong you were about all that you think you knew. And yes, I have hope and someday everything will be better, but it is really dissapointing being here right now, with tears in my eyes and a lot of sadness inside me.

Writing in english just in case someone of my family find this.